28 years old and proud!

Pagi ni lepas blik kerja (Night shift) terus mandi, tidur.
Bangun.. late lunch with Had dekat chicken rice shop then beli la a piece of cheesecake at this newly opened cafe. Cantikla cafe dia.

I thought I would like to safe the cake later la..
Tapi lepas kemas2 bilik yang sekangkang kera ni..dengan hujan-hujan gini...
Macam best la kan kalau ada kek and coffee.
Nikmat kehidupan gitu!
Jadi sudah selamatlah blueberry cheesecake itu kita santapkan!

 

ok. the rest adalah gambar sempena birhtday hr tu.

I actually have 4 different celebrations fr my birthday. 

Memula family dinner on the 12th (early celebration) then, luch date dgn sha on the 13th. Dinner date dgn had...then dinner date with the girls on 14th. 

Im so blessed in soooo many ways. 

Alhamdulillah. 

28 and proud! 

Family dinner la sgt,..tp gambar org lain kita tak snap pun.  :) 

Guilty as charged!

Allahu...
Allah menyelamatkan saya dari melakukan kesilapan.
Allah menyelamatkan dia dari amarah saya.

ok, so...i hate this consultant.
Smlm another fitting episode dari dia. Habis satu scope room dia amuk fr my mistake - ter double booked pt.
Pastu bebelan dia menjela-jela sampai babit emak abah la bagai... byk la.
Malas nak layan

Im so angry. Im frustrated. I had enough of this!
In my head, I began to plot....
I nak orang tailed her car. Know where she live.
Bashed her car!
Baling bangkai what not kat rumah dia..buat dia rasa ada org voodoo kan dia!
Make she scared. Make her sleep become sleepless!
I even nak tanya those Indian guards..do they know anyone who will get their hands dirty for me!

ouhhhhh!

horrible kan...
Things in my head mmg crazy.
I cannot believe I had this in my mind.
corrupted mind!

Then, today...bangun dgn rasa takut. Memang confirm she will find me today
then...dekat scope room.....
she said this to me
Nicely and firmly
" awak tahu tak...awak ni bagus buat kerja. Rajin. I cannot deny that...tp there are past of u..yg u buat kerja cincai2...."

Then, ada org masuk the room.
Saved me from another long lecture

Buden....
I RASA BERSALAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Things in my head are crazy...
I started to believed, bi'ah ini akan merosakkan nilai moral kita.
Ya Allah. Selamatkan saya!
Lindungi jiwa saya !

Tanah Kubur

Sekarang ni...tgh buat surgical rotaion; the most painful, the most heartbreaking la kata orang.
So far, proven true.
Workload tak sehebat medical. Tapi emotional torture.. tahap tertinggi.
So, nak dijadikan cerita.. kita ni tercampaklah didalam wad yg memang diketahui 'malignant'nya.
Consultant bermulut puaka dan sarcasm tahap org aussie pun nangis sujud takjub!

So, she loves to insult and cari salah setiap org. threatened kita semua dengan incident reporting and pink form .. I remember one time, she was insulting me ( not teaching eh) and one of the MO said
"I tak tahula mcm mana korang put up with this. Nevermind la..u post call. Go home and cry"
and my reply was
 "No, im not going to cry for this piece of shit that give me shit!"

then, bila dah blk..rasa bersalah pulak. Terhadap diri sendiri. I became one of those bitter person sbb berada di kalangan mereka (dia) yg pelik, mulut jahat, kurang insight.
This particular consultant is a spinster la. tua dah. Bitter and love to bite ppl. She achieve quite a lot despite being in her early fourties.  Tapi itulah, org kata kita tak mampu beri apa yg kita tiada. Orang begini kurang kasih sayang mungkin, dan mungkin sebab itu perangai begitu.

my conclusion utk menggambarkan dia adalah.. seorang typical surgeon, self absorbed narcissistic arrogant bastard that think so highly of oneself that their personality  is border line to grandiosity delusional schizophrenic lunatics.

Sekian.
saya akan berdoa setiap hari lepas ni..semoga jgn la jadi org begini.
ameennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn..!


*on tanah kubur, I was telling about this consultant to my sister whom favourite show is tanah kubur. She kept quite after i told her the story then  said this ... ' so...kalau dia mati mcm mana eh...boleh masuk citer tanah kubur ni.."

=.="

My cuzzy Ira, who lost her father to CKD and shes only 15yo. Poor thing, beautiiful soul!